05 August 2009 @ 1:21 AM.
what's the meaning of all this?stop being so self-centered.i too have feelings.what's your motive of doing all of this?what do u really want me to do?how could u possibly change your mind in a snap?first u say u cant manage your time with me,studies and your friend that came here frm indonesia to visit s'pore and u.ok i totally understand that they are not here everyday but why did u behave 1 sidely when i comes to me.atleast if u dont hv the time for me atleast keep me update.aint that what u are suppose to do if u usually have a bf?u said that u need the both of us fucking much but why u treat me as in im a tissue for u?and u even heck care when i say i wanna settle this so that we can be happy.u even say meet on wednesday to clear things up.aint that too late when u say it at saturday?our r/s is not important?aft what we been through for 17th months?i know im an ass but i change for u.did u notice?u even got the cheek to wear bikini to sentosa?i know if im too much but u want other horny guys to look at u?sorry but when it comes to bikini its a straight no for me.when u finally decide to meet me on tuesday u did say earlier but u have last min class so its ok.when u meet me at my house tell me how's your face,what's your emotion?what did u felt?u said u cant manage all of this at once right?u even say u want time till end of your o's.for you i sacrifice i say yes just to see u pass with flying colours.like what u say u wanna challenge my score of A's right?so i dont mind.i just want the best for u.i say to u that i wont be msging u cs i will be disturbing me but what did u say to me in those tears?u beg me to msg n call u every single day so i decide to swallow my ego just to say yes to stop those tears.then when i left u msg me this the reason im doin this cause i cant bare to u in pain.everything that u have done u still cant change for the best just for me.give me time to change to be the best wife for u.this few wks i did hurt u n cant stop hurting u.heard that u hvnt been sleeping n all those.it breaks my heart.i will come back to u.and she say she loves me.i was too trustful and gullible towards her.i gave her a chance to change cs everybody deserve chances.bt aft all she said on tuesday she eat all of the words on wed.she told me that she wanna move on.she dont wanna feel all of this pain anymore and im giving her pressure if i msg or call her?what does this mean?i though u want it?than y sudden change of mind?is it bcs i met meen on wed and i msg u bout break thing and i msg her using i u in mly?fyi its was supposingly to be sent to her bt i send wrongly cs im having a job briefing.is it bcs of this?is it that u think that im still a flirt?sorry but i change just for u.since that day till monday i have been trying to reach u bt u push and avoid me.aint it better if u just meet me just for a while and we settle this so i wont bother u till u o's?i just want answer is it hard?what's the motive of avoiding me?u sure ure damn busy?sorry but even the busiest person on earth can make time for their love.u say u wanna move on right?haaaa!after u said that u dnt wanna have a bf and a r/s but im sorry im nt easily cheated on but u already have a new guy in your life.congrats.while im suffering out dere ure enjoying.when i ran home fpr 3 days bcs of my bro beat me up and im having a high fever did u care for me?u just let me die and let just kept me hanging.my heart is not a toy.if ure afraid to let me know that u hv a new guy cs u re afraid i'll bashed him up?sorry but i change.i tend to think positive now and i matured enough to think of what to do now.i can control my anger nw.im strong and nt weak as a pepek as u pressume.its u that aint matured enough.u just left me like that n have a new guy already?aft 17 of our love life.maybe u dont know how much i love u.how much i cry on u.how much i care bout u.u just wont bother.all of my friend ask me to move on but i decide to gv our r/s another chance.but do u even care?if u want to be with this guy so much then its ok la.but trust me ok.just dnt regret it.u know what will happen.what typical guys do.just tc of urself.i cant make u listen to me much like last time.trust me one day u will be knocking on my door once again.just dont let ur ego control u.and lastly im sorry bout mama.w/o her im nt that strong.she is like a real mum to me eventhough i have a mum bt she didnt care for me like mama did.thnks mama.i really love u i really hope i can be ur soon.but we let time tell ok.just answer all of this qn if u tend to read my blog.u know where to find me
