be in my shoes just to see what it's like to be me

2010-02-22T00:43:00.002+08:00

if i were to cry for help, will you help me?

P/s : I'm back for more

2009-11-23T21:55:00.002+08:00

the picture which explains the whole story

*on the other note, be mature and set ur thinking straight please.we use to be close like brothers but now?u treat me like an unknown.c'mmon man, u gotta wake that idea of urs up and dont let this setback get the best of us

2009-11-16T12:26:00.003+08:00

what happen last week :

thursday : 2012 at cineleisure
chill at ion
yishun's starbucks till 4+
cabbed back home

friday : cabbed to the cathay for paranormal activities
chicken rice at mckenzie
sheesha at haji lane
yishun starbucks
cabbed home

saturday : town
yishun starbucks/macd
civic to chill with affy and pekxzz
something spectacular happen.ahahhaha!

sunday : sleep like a pig

*photo's will be uploaded soon

2009-11-16T12:19:00.002+08:00

pathetic buggers these days just wont stop yack-ing their mouth.let it be guys or girls.seriously man.u guys need to wake that pathetic idea of urs.before putting others or blaming others into shits,blame urself first.dont yknow ure such a pain?irritating ass.im not a heartbreaker asshole.look at urself at listen to what ur heart is saying.and i hate rushing.seriously i cant be bother with all these people nowdays.and on the other note i can either be ur sweet dreams or beautiful nightmares.

2009-11-10T23:55:00.002+08:00

schedule for this 2 weeks :

tuesday/10.11 : training for pilot pen tournament

wednesday/ 11.11 : match at bishan ite (alumni vs current student)

sunday/ 15.11 : light training for pilot pen tournament

tuesday/17.11 : bone specialist check-up

wednesday/ 18.11 : training at bishan ite

sunday/ 22.11 : pilot pen tournament
: woodlands under 18 trial

tell me how am i gonna recover with all this hetic soccer schedule?

2009-11-10T14:37:00.004+08:00

Payback mothafucka for the way that you got at me
So how's it taste?
When i slap the taste outta your mouth
With the bass so loud that it shakes the place

2009-11-09T14:38:00.002+08:00

from this moment on im seriously tired and lazy to layan u all.PERIOD!pathetic buggers.when ure drown in ur sorrows or friendless u guys will come to me.better wake up ur ideas mothereffers.

2009-11-08T22:34:00.002+08:00

atlast its been a week since i kick a freaking ball.had a match today.but i didnt sleep again.went slacking till sunday morning.headed home aft that aft had a quick bathe.prepared everything and took 2 panadols b4 leaving home.quick training then off goes the match.had to be a spectator for the 1st 20mins then there's go's my name called by the coach.we had alot of chances.totally hard luck.i burned their right back like water.heh.the best part is they are all bloody 15years old and they are all so fanatic that as if they played rugby and always give u that staredown.cmmon laa -.-!in the end we lost 2-1 but we did put in alot of effort.now must be prepared for next 2weeks for the pilot pen tournament i guess.and now i need make a bloody black jersey.what number should i pick?hmm.lastly i really need to tone that temper of mine down really low.haiya.

2009-11-05T04:06:00.003+08:00

if only i could turn back time to the incident that cause my ankle to be like this.i swear i can cry when it 1st happen.now all i can do is sit at home and chill.i couldnt play soccer nor do activities that involves footwork till i reffer to the bone specialist.been patiently waiting for it to recover and it been 2 months since the injury occurs.although im injured i still play soccer but virtually.heh.FIFA10 dok!being doin upperbody regime this past few days and being controlling my sticks just for the sake of being fit for sunday.and hopefully the pain lessen by then and i can bang in loads of goals.i still indecisive over which boot to pick. hmm adidas adipure, total 90 laser, adidas predator, puma ?and for those who are concern bout my ankle.thanks you beryy much.

2009-11-04T01:39:00.003+08:00

errr.like finally imah,nart and few otr ppl's wish came true.damn!i finaaaaaaaaaaaaaally i went to poly to check my bloody shitty troublemaker ankle.it cause me alot of shits.i couldnt even walked properly.when i walk ppl gimme that bloody look as if im cripple.srew them!cabbed to poly w mummy.i swear i wait till i can even lay eggs.aft consultation the doctor ask me to go for an x-ray aft that the doctor says ntg is wrong w the ankle bone just that its some muscle pain.fucking shit i can feel the pain caused by then bone yet u said ntg wrong.pathetic doctor and he also did mention he cant do anything but ask me to reffer to the bone specialist at Alexandra Hospital on the 17 november and till then no soccer or activities.NABEY BIBIR!im just gonna be stubborn for one last time and ntg or nobody is gonna make me change my mind.this sunday upcomming soccer match,im so gonna tape my ankle and use ankle guard.and lastly i wanna braid my hair plssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.

2009-11-01T04:20:00.002+08:00

here's a quick one

friday : skipped night class bcs unbareable pain caused by left ankle.met affy instead to slagg a lil bit in the middle of the night.

saturday : woke up at 5+pm upon receiving nuisance phonecalls.bathe and head to bugis to sheesha w ABC boy and girls too.almost went suffocated when smoke too many stuff in a go.should try smoking sheesha and gudang garam in a go.met affy in train and slagg a lil bit then home sweet home

sunday : got training and match.i can hardly walk and im expected to play.how??haiya!if it continue like this my ankle is gonna break sooner or later.and the best part im down w fever.NABEY BIBIR!!

2009-10-27T22:48:00.002+08:00

these days i have been doing things w lotsa effort even if i will overtire myself.as long im feeling satisfied.to be honest i still cant play soccer but i just force my left ankle.i have too much too risk.next month is Friendship Cup and a week ltr there is Trial for wwfc.i must perform for both occasion.but how to if my ankle is hurting badly?

2009-10-27T22:35:00.002+08:00

on sunday i expect things to be as per normal but the main prob started w me not sleeping.aft WSB trg i decided to dropby siling pri as saiful said he needed manpower for his team.so blablabla i help 'em play for the 2nd half.and we lost terribly cs im really tired and they rest are playing afool.when i decided to pack and go home they told me they hv another match at marsiling sec i wanted to say no but its artificial field so i sayy okay.we played better at marsiling sec as we all are so SEMANGAT due to the field.we manage to get a draw when we can kill the game but we miss 2 open goal chances.atleast an achievement but sadly my body is aching badly and i dont feel like sleeping cs it hurts badly.any one wanna help massage my back?

2009-10-23T00:06:00.005+08:00

Do you remember when you told me that I would never be good enough for anyone
And I wasn't worth any girl's time, energy and I would play all along
And why did I listen that? Why didn't I stand up for myself?
You made me believe that Im gonna suffer and stumble all my life
And Im so dumb to have been listened to your words for way too long
I should have known I'm way too strong
And you get it all wrong, Im not the same person I used to be
The old Faruq Kyrul is long dead and gone
I aint stumbling, and please get your facts right then you can discriminate
Do I look I have the time to even do that?
I swear upon my life I didnt do anything and why would I be doing it?
It will only make me loose face too
Its okay that you dont wanna listen to my say and didnt even believe me
I will just take all the blame and etc, cause that i have been doin that untill the truth is leaked out
Thanks btw.you take care alright and all the best.

2009-10-20T02:27:00.002+08:00

I know some shit it hard to swallow.But im not gonna sit back and let you discriminate me.So this is for you

Thanks for reposting my whole post
Good for you to have your own interpretation
Gyeah, I know I am twisting my words around
Cs I'm not an educated kid like you

I may be dumb but im streetsmart and wise
Perhaps your interpretation makes you think that i'm covering myself up
Fyi, I wasn't implying on anything.
Like I said, good for you to have your own interpretation

I know whatever Im doing is wrong, Cs i was never taught the right things

Well, at least I follow my heart and brain

Who said, I wanted you to lose your face?
Must be because you have your own interpretation
If you think everything was because of you, well okay then

In my point of view, you reposted because you were affected by the whole situation

You were to confident that things will go your way

But sorry, you cant force it

I do love you and the feeling is starting to grew but you were impatient too wait

Easy Come Easy Go.Hard To Come Hard To Go(bear this in mind)

On the positive note, I didn't listed your name so everyone can have a guess who
And, who said I love you to me first?I know everyone can read it but still, i rather leave a question mark to them

*I didnt meant to start a war.but if u want it this way.its fine then.

2009-10-19T04:16:00.003+08:00

firstly i wanna wish u a big thank you and a round of applause.if u wanna talk plsss mind ur words cs i have been tolerant all this while.u and ur foul mouth.blowing ur top.is it worth is?i have been nodding down and hearing what u and ppl say.im just too lazy to speak up.u only think you are the only one w that flaring temper?sorry bt u hvnt yet met nor heard words frm my mouth.u wanna go on mocking me, scolding me vulgarities, label me names and feeding words into my mouth.GO ON AND I DNT EVEN FUCKING CARE.IT AINT WORTH BLOWING MY TOP FOR THIS.ITS JUST A EFFING WASTE OF TIME.u said that im nt over my ex?YA U GOT THAT RIGHT.i still have unsettle issues w her cs she kept badmouthing me while she is the PERFECTO.i do love her but all is turn to hatred.u get it?u knew that i had my vices and i also did warn u that im only gonna break ur heart but yet u still want to change me and want me.u say me this that, feeling insecure, blaming me and u even doubted me.but have u mirror urself and blame urself 1st b4 blaming me?who ask u to go gugugaga over me in the 1st place?the reason i ask u to put us in a r/s at fb was just a gesture.untk main2 je.phm?bt i didnt noe u were seriously falling for me and love me.to be honest im confuse.i do have that feeling for u.but sometimes the feeling suddenly disappear and the next min it will be dere again.idk whats goin on.everythings seems a mess.and im sorry for my action.but i think u dnt unstd how i roll.i want things to go in order.take thing cool and slowly.learn bout each otr.i hate rushing.and we are like rushing.seriously if u cant wait then no choice.it cant be force.basically frm the start i noe that we gonna have communicating probs.on how to unstd otr desire and needs.and the way we interact.u can label or say whatever u want.i noe myself best.i will continue on what im doin best.and i wont listen to no one.i have probs w obeying.sorry.i wont change nor arrange my ways.im just too stubborn.and lastly dont compare me w my ex.u sure she is happy w her life?haaaaaaa.and u say that im hurting ppl or are u hurting urself.think bout it kay?im really happy this way.my life has no boundaries.aint that good.sorry if i too harsh but i say things straightforward.

2009-10-15T12:52:00.003+08:00

finally ystrdy met up w HAAAmiHAARR.the last meeting was like a week ago and pity her for missing me so much.heh!walk about to alot of places.so tiring.luckily my tong sampah meter is full if not i cant bear to walk about.somebody wanted to gimme a treat bt sorry i just dnt wanna accept it n im nt petty.just that idw to use ur money.heh!took alot of pics till im outta pose.i wonder how HAAmiHAAR and rina frozen can manage to come up w 200+ pics whenever they go out??while talking random shot.gf captured a hunkyhunky pic.u noe i noe.public dk.HAHAH!im still dead tired.insufficient sleeep man.redbull seems not to work anymore.it didnt gimme the suppliment like i need.tsktsk.maybe i should turn to naugthy g instead.hmmmmmmmmm *ilymm.

2009-10-14T06:52:00.003+08:00

damn faggots.i still cant manage to sleep.gosh the last time i stay awake the whole day w/o sleep was on the 10th.usually the latest i will sleep by 5+.immm sooooooo sleepy but when i lay down or try to sleep my head goes bombom.idk whats happening to me.maybe im gg to be sick or whatsoever or something is bugging me.summore today i have plans.immmm ssoooooooooooooo dead.haaaaiiiii

2009-10-14T01:44:00.003+08:00

been waking up late these days.i already miss out on my checkup TWICE SUMMORE!luckily on wednesday(today) match cancel.if not i will be doubtful to play.pfewwwh.gf has been yearning to meet me so much.im sorry i have been busy sleeping and when we're gonna meet i will like reply ur texts and calls super late.its not that im not interested its just that im like having a sleeping disorder.dont get the wrong idea and sorrry i didnt meant it.we are so gonna meet today okay dear?chill.its been a week since we met.i gotta admit i do miss u too.but 1st up b4 we meet or something.u gotta do ur best and wake me up.GOOD LUCK TRYING!

*u just fit nicely like a glove bby andand ilymm....

2009-10-12T00:51:00.002+08:00

well friday was suppose to celebrate dalvin's birthday at ecp w his frens and us.so i had no choice bt to skip my religious for the 3rd time straight.gosh.i really need to go this time round.wanna be a pious person when i grow up.HAHAHAHHA!1st up we eat 328 famous laksa.then walked to the pit bt there was no one.ccb!get to noe they're still at home.so we played bowling.haaaaa.dal was leading all the way bt luckily i made a come back.pity dalvin.yadayada.we head back to woodlands n they plan to watch the movie TSUNAMI.i didnt noe its in korean.bt overall i would give 4.5 out of 5.some part really kok but its worth every penny of urs to watch it.lastly we hang out till 4 then we call it a day.

2009-10-09T02:22:00.003+08:00

my thursday night was spend w this dude and dudette.it was fun.this pic is a memoriable one cs aft this pic my wallet is sadly missing.slagg at taka and 1st i notice my wallet fell down then i picked it up and place it back in my back pocket.blablabla.then when wanted to head home im so stressed that i cant find my wallet.gosh it fell again=.= .if wallet mura tape.tsktsk.im really wishing that someone pls return it back to me.plsssssssssss.i gotta make a police report.any one wanna follow?

2009-10-07T02:53:00.002+08:00

lastly i wanna wish my bestest macha a happy 17th birthday to him.may u be blessed and may ur wishes came true.eventhough ure a self centered asshole, ure still the best.he help me getta out of shits and truely is my best talk kok kia and soccer kaki.my wish for u is for u to get a gf soon.happy 17th birthday dalvin singh anddddddd i cant wait for the 10th oct.haha.

2009-10-07T01:44:00.002+08:00

today it started badly.had a conversation and it turn out to be a horrifying truth.so i just hang up and im so pissed off.luckily i fall asleep while im angry if not idk what would hv happen.slept for just a few hrs then wake up to feed lil bro and send him to sch.blablabla.i sleep again aft sending him.get a call frm aly to get ready.met aly and chan2 at 6+.as usual lmbt =.= !1st up headed to tong seng.mkn!aft that its shopping time.i manage to get myself a boot cutted jeans and a design tee.slagg a bit then yadayada.train back home.this part i gotta elaborate.1st came in a BIG FOOT!a bangla w a big footie came in.he was wearing a safety shoe and i swear its HUMONGOUS!summore he is wearing a mickey mouse bag.all the way we look at him and laughed but the sad part was he looked like he wanna cry and go home to his mommy.2nd was a guy.a look infront was okay.but at the bag.his pants was covered w mud.lols.last bt not least.this malay guy.he is so plum somesort like his mid 30's.1st he sit then he open up his wallet and sniff a picture like he is sniffing glue.worst part of it.he smelly TERRIBLY BAD.thats all bout today.haha!

i stooped so low to blog bout this.sape mkn chilli terase pedas kay?tell me whats the point of telling ppl stuffs?will it make u look good and make my name go down the drain?it started since that incident.yea honestly im afraid.bcs there were like 15 of them and im alone.eventhough ure almighty or watsoever u will still loose.its against the odds dude.yea i ask u guys for help and im thankful that im okay till now, thanks to u guy.but why arent u sincere?arent u guys a great actors?infront of me all smile and laughters.behind me u guys are like devils.look urself in the mirror and see how great u think u are.aint this called coward?u hardly even know me.and u wanna brag bout it like as if u know all of my shits?how bout urself con?u can tell it straight to my face.u guys are like a disease which infected the whole group to listen to u guys.how bout a round of applause to u guys?great job.i know u guys think lowly of me cs i only talk big and i didnt do what i say.cs im really lazy to pick a fight.but trust me.i aint gonna be that laid back guy anymore.i had enough.PERIOD!lastly i noe im nt as highly educated as u.nt as respectable as u.im just a piece of shit right?but aint u guys the bigger shits?sorry if my eng is improper unlike urs.nights.

2009-10-07T01:23:00.002+08:00

all i wanna do know is partying non-stop.i dont give a damn.party all night and sleep all day.and throw all of my problems away.then my life will be eeeaaaaaaaaaaasyyyyyyyyyyy!popping bottles like no one cares.and live like a richman son.wouldnt that be one hell of a life?

2009-10-06T01:16:00.002+08:00

i wonder what will i look like if i were to wear

top
denim jacket
dark blue knee length straight cutted berms
vans

and and im wondering sud i cut my hair or??hmmm

2009-10-06T01:08:00.002+08:00

everytime i wanna update my blog i will stress myself bout what to blogg bout =.= .well this this basically what happen this week.when raya-ing with ABC boys on saturday.trust me its damn funny especially when the part we are mocking bout somebody(sape mkn chilli terase pedas).took alot of pics and blabla.damn tired as i didnt sleep the previous day cs i slagg with my tok kok kia.and thnks for the treat dal.i need help in finding work.CAN ANYBODY RECOMMEND ME WORK?!its getting bored sitting at home.pleaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaseeeeeeee

2009-10-01T07:07:00.005+08:00

on tuesday fahmi & nadt crash at my crib.it been awhile since i ask them to came to my hse.simply miss their company when im all alone at home.watch B-13U till im starving and we went to cwp to eat kfc.aft eating i told em i wanted to boost my p8.then frm afar they say do u see who im looking at now.im like who who?hahah!i open my copet eyes widely and i saw meen/pek at bns.i quickly walk to her and gave her a warm hug and a peck on her forehead as its her birthday.swee2 i met her of her birthday.lols.aft that slagg at treehaus and i swear i dk what suddenly went into me and i go crazy and im like berserking and they were like totally laughing.**bbbllluueeeeeeee colour!(nadt u noe i noe)

and and its been twice since i met girlfriend.so far everything is goin smoothly just like what i prayed for.u need to boost ur self esteem dear.im just contented w the situation now.utterly speechless.im sorry bout recently if we had some arguements.sparks suddenly went flewing and we are in a battlefield.she had the sweetest smile among all the girls i had known.she is like a pot gold of gold to me.ure the best i ever had and i love u.what happen just now was totally accidental.i didnt noe it will be like that.HAHAHHA!

*I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know everything that shine ain't always gonna be gold.I'll be fine and happily mad once I get it and I'll be gooooooooooooooooooodd.

2009-09-29T03:31:00.003+08:00

look around,youre not the only one w pussy.watch ur mouth puss.what good will do if u keep on bitching bout me?wanna look and feel good among ur peers or so called 'friends'?why would u even wanna compare me?a bitch w still be a bitch.aft u condemted me,u asked me for help then ure doin this?i didnt intend to know bout ur life but aft wat i heard.im laughing my ass off.looks like im having the last laugh here.suffering in love life again is it?lol.i thought he is ur one?ur so called bby love?ur everything?HAHAH.u can just kiss my damn ass.u wanna 5 A's for O level?*yawns.wanna beat my score is it?pardon me but ure way off target.w ur sorry ass attitude and in a love life u aint getting near there.last advice for u.b4 doin anything or even saying something think wisely and look at urself on the mirror.then u can judge or compare and even bitch about to make u totally innocent.*It may not mean nothing to y'all.But understand nothing was done for me.So I dont plan on stopping at all.

2009-09-29T03:23:00.003+08:00

firstly i would like to wish meen/secretary/pek,a happy 18th birthday.stay happy aites?life is just a rollercoaster ride.sometimes it gets really interesting and most of the time sad.chill kay?and btw im sorry i didnt talk to u for sumtime and i wanna thank u so much for helping my sorry ass so many times.if it aint for u i wont be here.thanks and happy birthday.da legal da.da bole mintak tlg beli rokok.*winks

2009-09-28T02:09:00.002+08:00

if i could party all the time and sleep all day

and throw all my problems away

would'nt my life be easy?

2009-09-26T00:26:00.004+08:00

finally today i had the courage to vid call with gf.she called me black japanese and she even commented that my eyebrows look straight like i paste it or something.thanks eh mamasita.whatever it is.i love u more than u love me

2009-09-25T00:11:00.008+08:00

been wanting to say this.well here it goes.i been wanting a gf.not for lust,not breaking her heart,not for mistreating her.but its for a companion i have been longing for.whom i can share my stories with her.go through the ups and downs.to take good care of me.not me making me feel neglect.make her feel loved and share my heart with her like its the last slice.i will do my best to stop all my bad habits and prosper in sch like i always do.getting A's.i have been astrayed for 9 months.not enlisted in sch nor work.and i do have a problem with misbehaving.i have been fooling around endlessly till i met this somebody at an unproper place/event.i dont give a shit bout yr bloody past or watsoever.and its ntg compared to my shitty past.whats past is past.if it werent for the past we aint what we're now.and when i say i love u i did mean it.just that im really afraid to make u official mine.cause im afraid im might just break your heart.maybe i should just give it a chance cs i know it will blossom well cs ure one hell of a sweet girl.and you aint like those girls outside.you really love and care for me.you know who im talking about.i love u...........

2009-09-24T23:58:00.003+08:00

its been awhile since i attend wsb training.i dnt gv a fuck if this team is bloody useless or so.i prefer playing for an underdog team then a prestigious team.well fans love the underdogs.i texted hydr bout training session and stuff.he told training will resume on the 11 oct.and he also say we need to fork out $70 for training kit and jersey.PEH PUKAT!kau pki aku cap $ pe.hai.mane la na kerek tu $$.its fucking bullshit.asl cikgu2 yg lain ta kuar kn $.miskin gle babi pe.tamo jadi org taik idong masin uh.like 5 items and it cost $70.haaa.g mampos uh.step miskin.ckp financial.hahahah!i just wanna help them achieve friendship cup glory then till then im off to someotr team.insyallah.amin

2009-09-24T09:43:00.002+08:00

They want me to fall

Fall from the top

They want me to drop

They want me to stop

They want me to go

I'm already gone

The shit that I'm on

They want me to disappear

Like it's gonna do shit for them

They say that I'm in the way

And really the fact is, we not even in the same bracket

Not in the same league

Don't shoot at the same posts

Don't buy the same ciggs

Hang with the same ppl

So how am i in the way, what is it you're hating me?

2009-09-24T00:45:00.004+08:00

to !!!.im sorry but hear my point of view.u viewed my blog.its totally cool.and u tagged.bt atleast use ur real name pls.im really lazy to entertain haters/spammers.ntg better to do in life is it?u say my ex suffered for 17months?or are u my ex?if she suffered for 17months then she must have been the most fucking stupidest girl i've ever known, who would love a guy who made her suffer for 17 months.bury this deep down in ur mind.get the full story then u can judge.think wisely.u say im a coward?gyeah im.cs i dont wanna risk my life for sumthing aint worth it.how bout u?tagging my taggboard w/o using ur own name.aint tt call an immature act.pls.watever u wanna do.think twice.

2009-09-23T01:01:00.003+08:00

hey if ure reading this.V good.if nt im sure the speak of devil will fly v fast.i stoop so low to blog bout this post.seriously i feel like throwing a bloody rock at ur bloody head.just to knock sum sense into ur head.can u just like stop playing drama's w mummy?i really hate actors man.gosh!atleast i dnt need ur reminder to wish ur mum hari raya.DID U EVEN WISH MUMMY IF I DIDNT REMIND U?asshole sia.ta kenang budi peh pepek.ni la pmpn.da senang lupe org.kesian mak kau.ehhh.aku harap2 kau alek indon sia lincar2.singapore da cukop nan foreigner uh.lg2 org cm kau kn.haaaaaaaa.think wisely eh pls.ta habes2 na step gerek.siak!kau jadi maid uma aku kn best?aku lei suro kau sini sane.hahahahahhaha!harap2 kau fail o level then kau masok ite.aru kau tau cmne idop susa.siak tol.na jual mahal bile org na tlg.pepek tol.tade maaf bagi kau uh

2009-09-23T00:07:00.003+08:00

hari raya overall was fun.it didnt turned out to be bored like i thought.1st thing was the picture taking.as always its been me,the only person tt will be hardest to be caught on cam.cs when taking family photo i will be like e tallest.my brother always say u wear heels or wat-.-!tinggi sala pendek sala.cmne ni?haiya.next was seeking for forgiveness part.shall nt elaborate bout this.blablabla.aft the 1st day & 2nd day of raya i counted my collection money. i only manage to get $90+.most of houses i went didnt gave me cs the moment they look at me and saw."da kerje kn?".then i just smile.bt the funny part most of them wanted to gv my sis-.-.haaaaaa.the happiest part was today i went shopping w fahmi & nadt.i wanted to grab a wintervest and a pair of shades.alhamdullilah manage to get both at it at just $59.lols!cant wait for more collection so can shopping,partying and watever it is.in life we need to enjoy.HAHAHA

to gf : im sorry okay.it was totally outta my control.i only manage to sleep at 6am & i was hoping for mummy to wake me up aft she send lil bro to sch.it's all my fault.im really sorry.no more next time.i love u.heh!

2009-09-17T22:12:00.004+08:00

kube mp3 for sale(black colour)

a week old

starting price $30(negotiable)

comes with 2gb sd card,earpiece and usb cable

2009-09-17T20:39:00.004+08:00

hari raya is just round the corner.im totally not ready for it.especially the seeking for forgiveness part.where i have to seek forgiveness frm the elderly such as ayah,mummy,1st bro,1st sis,2nd bro,2nd sis.gosh it sucks being 5th in the fam.i done them wrong countless of time this year.im sure gonna burst in tears.my ramadan for this year is totally ruin.i wish i could turn back time and control myself frm all the temptations of the devil.this year's celebration sure gonna bring back past memories.i had everything last year which was so beautiful.bt now i lost everything.i didnt expect things to be this way.gotta brace myself for this upcoming heartbreak

2009-09-16T20:17:00.002+08:00

it's funny how one moment can change million after it.

started as love then hatred

i dont wanna this to go on

can this shit stop now?

2009-09-16T12:11:00.004+08:00

why do i feel so shitty right now?is it due to today's date?the memories that better to be left unsaid.i just dnt wanna the same thing to happen.trust me i aint that guy whom posseses the soft spot for girls.i turned stone cold aft shits happen.all those crazy shits i did, those will be the best memories.i will just let it go cs it'll be the best therapy for me.no more crazy stuff.PERIOD!

I just realise its 12+.oh gosh i have nt even sleep since ystrdy.gosh!i wanna have my beauty sleep.afternoon readers.

to gf : im really sorry for this morning convo.i didnt meant to get u upbeat & mad.all i wanted is just to tell u the truth.so its better.better be safe than sorry.bear in mind what i say okay?and we'll just follow the flow kay bby?

2009-09-13T05:22:00.002+08:00

upgrading/inactive

find me elsewhere for the time being

2009-09-11T06:34:00.005+08:00

why is everyone pressing my blowup button way too hard this fasting month.aint u guys know tt it's fasting month?cmmon y'all think with ya head.not tt butt of urs.i had enough of spammers.seriously.to ??? i dont give a bloody damn to u.u know my hse?u know where i stay?better still.im daring u to come today if u got balls.bt wait,u in what army?yp's?hahah!my friends got my back.how bout u?u want some.come get some asshole.or u dnt hv transport money?i will sponsor for u cs i know ure too poor to come down.i bet u only got guts to spam my taggboard.how bout we meet n talk.the gentleman's way.how bout tt?dnt talk as if ure a bitch.u know me upside down?how well?all talk no action.cowardly act.pls be mature.u say im a boy.wat does it reflects u for being older than me?think asshole think.if u really want me so much.let's get it on.let the fist do e talking.sorry if u dnt unstd my eng.cs i bet ure lowly educated....

2009-09-10T18:20:00.003+08:00

these days i hv not been sleeping well.feeling fucking sick.not only that.im injury hit.my knee ligament hv yet to recover n now my ankle is gimme a pain in e ass.i could bearly walk or even run.bt i just dnt give a damn till nw its swollen n my ankle bone isnt visible -.-!i feel like just breaking my ankle so when it comes to ns i will get an excuse.aint it great?

tmr plans :

meeting my tok kok kia
breakfast outside with idk who
sheesha and get drunk till i cant take it
watch midnite movie with bestest macha

Eversince i broke up with her.im becoming from bad to worse.ure right pek.menjadi2 kn?hai.i really cant control myself frm all this temptations.i started smoking n drinking again.its like a pastime for me to get drunk.n nw im even turning into a clubber.oh gosh wats happening to me?im nt like this.im really turning into a flop.or maybe i need sumbody to help me control myself.....how i wish.

2009-09-09T14:24:00.004+08:00

i have not been sleeping lately.body aching all over.not feeling well and have this bad cough.i sounded like a dog.gosh.can sumbody just stuffed me any painkillers or alcohol.so i can just take e pain away.its strange u noe.when u need sumone or any help u would turn to me?what do u take me for?a promoter or a cyberlectual geek?gosh.cmmon man im nt ur tissue and pls quit being like this.aint u got sumone tt's better n can help u?.i noe i hv a soft spot for u.bt pls.enough is enough aft wat u did and dnt even thing on stepping on my head.it aint mr nice guy like last time.bear this in mind.aku bukan bahan taruhan kau.kau dtg kau ilang kau menang

2009-09-06T05:34:00.005+08:00

saturday was suppose to head out to geylang with bs boys.bt end up planned kok up.grrr.ass tol!then i went out with chanchan.haa.planned to go geylang bt instead we when sheesha.b4 sheesha on my mind was already buying drink.i wanna feel sky high like ystrdy.wanted to pay using nets.cb peh botak.asl kau ta msk kn gaji aku?hai.instead paying w cash then my money was gone aft buying drinks n cigg -.-!walked to haji lane to sheesha n drink.at 1st i can take it.till i finish all the drinks tt i bought n chanchan's n nyra's.heh!aft tt im gone.serious shit.i went to pee.n wan told me to follow the yellow line.haha!aft tt they play game n i laid back feeling high.aft all tt went to 'sahur' at jln kayu n reach hm at 4+ thnks to mimi for his ride..thnks guys for the wonderful time.haaa

2009-09-06T05:13:00.003+08:00

friday night was party night.to those who didnt make it.u guys are such a effer n missed a wonder night.damn tt was one hell of a party guys.thnks twin for the info.gonna party with u all summer.twiny power!at first the party totally sucks.bt the girls girls girls are !!!!!!!!!!!damn!twin n me decided to buy drink.i bought amsterdam n i gv him some of it.when we step back in the tempo is getting higher n better.dance dance dance till azri unk n his ehem came.twin fetch them n bring summore surprise.he bought another 2 asterdam n breezer.wah piang.we smoke like as if we're smoke machines.drink till we cant n head back in.damn i getta dance with shikin n my beloved pek.best ui!shikin says im nt like a 1st timer.lol.dancing with her remind me of emilia.their face is totally same.n when i dance with pek the song be with u lak.aiyoo2.haaa.i cant forget this chinese dude.totally a showoff.wanna showcase his mj moves.till chris brown stepped in he totally is a copycat.sorry bt nw is the era of chris brown.aft feeling so damn high n dancing till sweat like pigs.i was totally gone.i can bearly walk straight.smoke also diff.we walked to clementi mrt n sahur there.yadayada.train back hm n slept till buke.haaaaa!

2009-09-04T03:42:00.003+08:00

Had me convinced that I just wasn't enough

Me and you fussing and fighting causing all of that stuff

Now I know, that I might have done you wrong, didn't know I pay so long, till u did the same

I know I done u wrong I was making it up to u

I apologised in a million ways but I thought that was that

But I guess u got me back, didn't know it would be like that, but u did the same.

Now we're caught in a circle

A constant battle

The day that u hurt me

The clouds cast a shadow on us

And I hope ure happy we're even now

What happens to our relationships, started off so good and ended up so bad?

Baby I just wanna know, and pls tell u do know baby

Before we knew it we were at it again,

But somehow I dont think we can ever be friends, wish it wasn't so but u did the same

So I go on and on on this merry go round

Trying to chase a love that can never be found

Time to say goodbye and step off of it now

2009-09-03T03:31:00.001+08:00

Greed:	Low
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	High
Sloth:	Low
Envy:	Low
Lust:	Low
Pride:	Medium

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

i couldnt sleep then i decided to do this quiz.damn shit.i really need to go to anger management classes

2009-09-03T00:51:00.003+08:00

gosh whats happening to me?why do i keep stumbling and struggling these days?sucha pain.especially playing as a forward.had a great game i can say.the 1st half should be highlighted most.due to the shots save by both Jerome and me.one word MIRACULOUS!!u guys hv to see it to believe it.its like we're in champion league final.Die2 must nt concede.to be honest like David James(me) and Edwin Van Der Sar(Jerome).bt in the end only one winner will emerge and as usual the reds.we won 4-2.aggregate 6-2.haaaa.white u guys can just shut the hell up.i really need to give soccer a real long break.i cant take it anymore.injuries aft another.my knee and wrists still hurts n now my ankle is adding up to my burden.im just too lazy to visit the doctor n waste my money on it.any painkillers anyone?the one tt can take up all of my misery and burdens?and worse i think i cant fast these few upcoming days.im freaking sick.fever n asthma.great!and now how am i gonna fast full this year?hai.AND IM CANT WAIT FOR FRIDAY!YAHOOOOO.C'MON Y'ALL PARTY LIKE NO TMR

2009-09-01T18:06:00.002+08:00

It's funny how u think u really know urself

Like u would never lose urself to someone else

And I was up to thinking

It was all about u and me, silly, silly me

I should have never listened to a word u said

But I was always giving in to promises

I never should have gone for

I should never long for u no matter how hard it gets

And I want this to be over, I so want this to be through

In the end somehow it always comes back to u

Cause everywhere I go, No matter what I do girl

I just can't get u out of my head

So it annoys me, U wasn't woman enough

To come and tell me, That I was never the one

Like u said I was, U could have told someone

U knew U didn't love me anymore

If u had only told me how u really felt

I could have put my feelings into someone else

But I was busy thinking

I was where I was supposed to be, silly, silly me

But there was something about u that I couldn't resist

Can't put my finger on it but whatever it is

I never should have stood for it

I know ure no good for me

And that's the way it is

And I want it to be over, I so want it to be through

In the end somehow it always comes back to u

I tell myself, Get over u, It's over right, right thing to do

And just when I thought I was done, U pull me in for another run

I can't take this, I won't take this, I can't do this, I won't do it

Even if I know in the end somehow it always comes back to you

2009-09-01T01:05:00.003+08:00

i wanted to explain everything to u bt i dont hv the chance n i nv will.its either tt u always dnt let me or i will just to silent n listen to ur scoldings.i write at this blog as if im talking to u.cs its all me talking n u hear wat i gotta to say.aft tt u can say watever u want.rmbr when we just got together?i gave u everything then its even b4 1month and u already wanted to break up with me cs u say u hurt me.did i even care?do u noe how fucking much u meant for me?since pri 5 im own my own foot.mummy and daddy just let me be.paying all the attention to ayad.at tt point of time i need alot of guidance cs im growing bt is dere anyone for me to turn to?i hv been keeping everystuff i did both bad n good inside till i met u.i noe u cud heal the pain for me.eversince u step into my life.i keep wandering can we be together?and if we re together can we last?aft i got as my gf everynite i kept thinking.do i deserve u?or am i a lucky busted?ure so beautiful tt time n i was so geeky.u teach me everything.i swear.each time u left me for indonesia do u noe how fucking much i miss u?cs i really dnt wanna loose u.u really meant everything for me.ure like my bestfriend,gf and my mum.bt soon i get use to u leaving me for indonesia n KL.bt do u noe im struggling each day cs of my fam?u noe how my fam is like.infront of guest they are so good.bt behind them are all bullshits.imagine im like a fren with all my siblings.im nt even close with them.they keep pushing me away.to be honest i gotta admit.i got a BIG attitude problem and im very rude to ppl.rmbr i always get into trouble with ur guy friends?yea i was stupid.pardon me for tt.cs im just afraid tt i wud loose u to them.n they just keep pushing me cs im kental n bodo.u cud even let them talk bad bout me.i just wish nadtya cud forgive me.for wat i did to her.dnt u realise i did it for u?just to make u feel at ease?w/o me having a girl friend.cs rmbr wat u say to me bout her?u hate her all n such i did try to change ur thinking bt its no use.im sorry for leaving u to go accompany her play bowling on her birthday.i promise u tt i will really buck up for my studies as i always sleep in cls n the most laziest student.look wat happen?i really fulfill my promises get 5 A's for n level.its ntg much n i dnt wish to be proud.if im proud trust me i wnt even be friends with those low result ppl.rmbr wat we did on last years fasting month?tt was the best thing.the part tt i hate most bout u is tt.every major event bout u or ur birthday i must attend.then?where u dere for my n level result?better still my birthday?i just wish i cud celebrate with u cs i nv had it b4 w my gf.u promise me tt u will celebrate it when u come bck to S'pore.i just rmbr u givin me my present n sumthing else.where's e celebration like u promise?till this day i still rmbr.b4 u leaving for indon in nov i promise u tt i will change my look.getting rid of all the pimple on my face n change my hairstyle as u always complain bout it.then when i already look good n diff frm b4 wat did u say to me?im just longing for love n i can flirt with girls?baby is it me or u?u told me u wanted me to look good as well.cant u just be thankful?u told me u always wanted me to pamper u most of the time n treat u like an 11 yr old girl.i did it already bt its still nt enough for u.im sorry if i make u cry all day aft we broke up on our 1st yr.u want to noe y?i cant stand with ur childish play.ur ego is seriously killing me and i told u im in pain bt do u even bother?aft we broke up we still close.n i just cudnt bear to leave u tt soon cs i really love u.so i just mingle with u eventhough we re nt attach.bt how cud u say i kicked u about when u waited for me?the person who wants to stay is u.n im nt urs how cud u scold me?hey i even send u hm aft u gave me shit n hit me on few occasion.still dnt want to be thankful?im sorry if i always scold u bout the littlest things.cs i just want u to look good n etc.the reason i dnt want to listen to ur parents cs i dnt want to bother them so much aft helping me alot.they are ur parents n i dnt wish to take the attention frm u as i sud get it frm my parents.nw u flipped on me.lied to me and u keep preaching as if u noe everything.thnks.i appreciate it.n lastly if u still got any doubts to heal ur wounds u can ask me for explanations.n if u wanna break ur last promise then i cant do anything.ur his nw.bt miracle n me wnt forgave u.sorry if i really gotta stoop so low just to write this post and dere lots more i just dnt wanna continue here....

2009-08-31T20:12:00.002+08:00

korg2 yg ta suke ckp je uh.be a gentleman.na bbl blakang uat pe?bei pat depan step gerek nan aku?kental pe?eh pk la aku tau aku msh budak lg bt korg pki otk uh.lau korg berani nan matured korg bbl pat dpan muke aku uh.na bbl blakang psl aku?korg na judge2?sorry eh jgn na main lei shoot je.dgr uh ape yg jadi dulu bodo.pepek sia.umo korg je tue.perangai cm bdk kental.

2009-08-31T00:37:00.003+08:00

im really fed up with ppl.how come when i call upon them if i saw them outside they will gv me tt look n say who are u.n when i told them im faruq they will say this.are u sure?faruq dnt look like this and lastly wah ure different already n i look older.im still wandering wat difference do i look before n now?n how come they can forget my face.pfft.i know im so geeky during those days unlike those 'abg2' .=.= .bt time is moving fast n u gotta keep up.untill when u wanna look like a nerd whom always sits below their mum's armpit?lols.lastly im afraid bout teacher's day celebrations.confirm dere will be a qn and ans session for me like where u schling nw n blablabla.ass! trust me if anyone dares to mock me they will regret it..

2009-08-30T06:58:00.002+08:00

saturday plan was actually to go out with abc boys then meet my football kaki ltr on.bt abc boys cancel cs most of them cant make it.pfft.bt nvm i enjoy life to the maximum.dalvin my bestest macha wanted to treat us.all of us didnt believe when he broke the news to us on thursday.its like he really strike it big this time.lols.suppose to meet at 5+ bt end up at 6 =.= .trained to newton to eat at the foodcentre.he wanted seafood so we just go with the flow cs he's tha boss.we ordered large sambal stingray,sambal sotong,sweet n sour chicken,kangkong,tom yum soup,plain egg,10 bbq chicken wings and 10 green tea.tsk tsk.we ate as if its nt like buke n puasa.ass so many food.u think all of us got empty drums inside our stomach is it?luckily we managed to finished it.aft tt we headed to marina sq.dal got himself a tee at clubmarc.then headed to baybeats for a while to kill time.i wonder how the vocalist sings?the gullet didnt come out meh?lols.aft a short while took taxi to hollland v to watch soccer.managed to get superb view sits.gosh.bochui la shi wei.if nt we can drink till we drunk.we ordered budwieser n sumthing else bt shi wei like blurkok when the person ask sumthing.tsktsk.wasted! as i told u man u will win.sucha pity for u boy.last min drama.lols.the game ended n we quickly walked off n board into a cab.wah knn.the cabby driver gerek,happening n funny rbk!he can replace mark lee la.one thing tt amaze us is how he drive the cabby.the express way is like as if its a nascar track n the way he corner wah!!!can join f1 team already.got talent.bt one thing unsafe bout the cabby is tt the brakes arent good.every traffic lite he will overshot.imagine how dangerous is tt?btw im too tired to blabler bout wat happen.lots more actually.i need to sleep!got wsb trg ltr on.and lastly macha thnks for everything.ur treat is totally superb daaa.mimpi manis

2009-08-30T05:54:00.003+08:00

i dnt meant to be rude or to rake the past or watsoever in this post.u try imagining when ure asleep sumone msg u.asking a super bonus qn.what more are u asking frm me?still nt done hurting me yet?aint stabbing me in the heart a better option?i bet till the day i die i cant even rest in peace.why do ask me silly qn?ure old enough to know.and if u make a promise u gotta fulfill it.then tts how ppl will think highly of n respect u.u know better than i hate ppl who bubbled me and those u cant fulfill their promises.fine if u wanna break ur promises cs i know girls n their stupid promises.they are just bunch of lies to pleased ur heart for a while n they will break it soon enough.ur no longer mine so its up to u if u really want to break ur promise.maybe its an essential in ur r/s tt ure willing to break this promise.n it wont be my fault.bt trust me miracle n me wnt forgive u.bear tt in mind.u told me tt ure matured n move on already?hmm sorry bt i know u insideout better than anyone.if u already move on why u keep posting bout the past.aint tt fishy?why dnt u just suck my dick n call me daddy?my instinct is true tt u still got the heart for me.n yea i did hit the jackpot.n u say u love ur bf alot?hahha!u gotta be kidding.suits u best aites.btw i do want u back so much bt i hate u so much for telling how perfect ure to ppl n im nt gonna pin high hopes on u.i know u will come back 1 day aft u realise im way better n when ure full of regret.u wanna meet me n talk?i try uh.im busy uh.prolly no time for u.lols.do watever u want n break the promise if u want too.n lets see how will hv the last laugh.ha ha ha!

2009-08-29T07:46:00.005+08:00

lol like finally its friday.the day azura pek n me go geylang to widow shopping n stuff.as usual pek is late.i can even sleep for awhile to let her finish touching up n so =.= .trained to paya lebar n waited for azura.walked to the coffee shop n all the way we are talking bout something.tts so stupid n childish.lol!then aceh,mok n zhap joined us for buke eventhough 2 of them didnt fast.hehe.aft buke we walk like dead zombies.my leg felt so heavy as if they were shackled.tsk tsk.then we took pics all.n gosh!my face look so EXPIRED n my fringe is always the spoiler.bt nvm.i already cut it bangs baby.so it wont be a matter no more.sorry okay love if i only post a few pics.heh.aft feeling freaking bored at geylang as the asmostphere is the same as last yr.pfft.so boring.cmmon la.y'all gotta take it to the next level.heh.we headed to ct hall to lpak with kecyk n zuraidah for a short while then they headed home while i go slagg with my football kaki's till 3+ am at civic mac.planned for our big feast today.its gonna be fun.n arsenal fans.y'all gonna loose!okay i need to sleep if nt i will blaber everything here n i will be late for today's outing.mimpi manis

2009-08-27T21:55:00.003+08:00

this one is for you bro

on wednesday we are all suppose to hv a game btwn bishan boys.reds against white the 2nd leg.with the score reds leading 2-0.we are all excited to bout the game with the white saying to me tt they will score 3 against me.over my dead body white's.bt sadly we had to cancel soccer n changed our plans cs our ex captain ahmad khalzi was hospitalise.i was shocked when i heard bout him.he was fit as a bull n posses the pace n stamina of a stallion.hai sucha pity.so we headed to Alexandar Hospital n there is like alot of us so we hv to wait in the waiting room as only 2 pax at a time.when its my turn to go in to his ward.he looks so skinny n pale,he can hardly talk.bt he can even crack a joke.lol.the doctor still cant detect wats wrong with him.ysrtdy was the 1st time i break fast.n i only ate dates.i was damn hungry.bt nvm iman must be strong.anw get well soon okay bro?its been a while since we go out as a group n go sheesha-ing.rmbr when i was the only freshman in our 5 aside tournament n we get 2 placing?i want to relive the glory all over again with u bro.get well soon aites.we are all praying for u

2009-08-26T02:43:00.020+08:00

monday afternoon was fun as my twin/aidil crashed at my crib till i have to fetch ayad frm sch for a haircut n for us to challenge each otr in pro evolution soccer.we totally pathetic.played with controllers all bt his lappy screen is small bt the resolution of the graphic is solid.mentang2 hd kn -.-.gosh i lost to him narrowly as he won in the penalty kick.damn u twin.damn unlucky sia when i take the penalty kicks all.alot of misses.tsk tsk.okay enough of tt.here are the pics of b4 n aft his haircut.tell me which is better?

before :

JENG JENG JENG

after :

So how?is it neater?i leave it to u guys bout the final say.to me he look alot hotter than last time.nt the geeky2 typo anymore.sorry twin.n oh pls2 dnt be lazy.when want to go out/sch pls set up ur hair n u mite nv noe if dere's a lady drooling while looking at u.hahaah!n to whoever u needs a haircut find me okay?rest assure it will be the best u ever had.the rate aint tt high.n all is provided.so how?up for it?

2009-08-24T04:15:00.009+08:00

i know u will keep check on me.its okay.n im cool with tt.btw here sumthing for u.i dedicate to u n may u bear this in mind.btw pls i beg u to help mummy bout the maid stuff.i will do anything to help her.i cant bear to see her being helpless.pity her pls......

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2009-08-24T00:29:00.003+08:00

sometimes i always wonder why do ppl label me 'mat rep'.aint mat rep those typical dude.those low life ppl?no offence dudes!i just can find myself fit with the word 'mat rep'.like for an instance think over it.do i wear those burger cap?top man button tee?skinny jeans?mix star slipper n those flashy camera bags?no way.im way above them.maybe those who labelled me are wrong.u misjudge.how can u judge sumone as a mat rep base on the clothing and nt even allowing urself to noe the person.the important part of all is the heart.listen n judge by its heart content.w/o the heart we are ntg man.god gave us brains to think so use it wisely b4 shooting stuff at ppl.yea i noe its ppl's mouth bt think b4 u talk.human hv feelings.wat if u offended them w/o u realising it?to those who labelled me thnks aite.i will take it as a compliment.n u guys mistook me for a matrep.if u wanna say it rite.its suppose to be wearer nt matrep.i noe im a public trash cs im a bloody schless top student n jobless.bt its just gonna be this yr.next yr is a new beginning a new chapter.move on n forget the past.cs the past is what im nw.n im greatful tt i learnt alot of lesson at this tender age.trust me next yr i wont let u guys down especially mummy n mama.i will be schling.have a little faith in me....amin

2009-08-23T23:49:00.005+08:00

sunday was a super tiring day.imagine u were having ur beauty sleep then sudden there is a monster trying to catch u.picture tt readers.mummy woke me up at 11 cs we need to go to larkin n wherever it is.i bathe at my own slow pace n just grab watever tt can be wear.when we are already at larkin mummy ask me this.why do u wear like as if ure gg to cwp?then if u were to go town ure all dressed up. =.=!! gosh!mummy y sud i dressed up if i want to go jb?its a effing waste of time.eventhough nwdays i go town areas like slagg clothing.aft gg larkin to alter baju raye i was so happy cs we will head hm n i can continue my beauty sleep bt end up my dad say.want to go grocery shopping?for a moment i think since when is he so good?end up he hv a motive.gosh!sanggop psl na modify die ne kete ne psl -.- !we even took our own sweet time to shop n even bought food for buke bt still the car is nt done yet.tsk2.waited till forever then suddenly daddy say okay its settle n we can go home.wah he can drive like as if the highway is a nasca track.then we buke at home all n blablabla.summone has been showing off eversince he has a new lappy n a good webby-.-.ta heran okay?up there are the pics of me n the asshole!the hat trick paitau kia!hai pek oh pek.mane u?senyap je=.=

2009-08-22T18:03:00.006+08:00

gosh!eversince my lappy is invaded by the Pro Evolution Soccer game,im like a gamefreak.imagine i slept at 8+ am just to complete half of the season?-.- .thnks dal for the controller if nt i wont play the game this far.heh!friday was fun n above average.cs i went out with secretary.sorry if i were late.ta sengaje ui!cs i wasnt paying attention on the time as i was trying out the game n i was getting ready.headed straight to cahaya n wat else MKN TIME! and the blablabla.we chat bout alot,walked here dere n waited for aceh to finish work.like kakak n adik na amek abg.HAHA!trained back home n slag with aym charlie till 1.wow he truly is a motivator.HAH!i just cant believe it tt today is puasa n raya is around the corner.aint it way too quick?maybe its just tt my year is a challenging one n i hvnt been keeping track with the months.btw pek no need to pengsan okay aft wat happen at 7-11 ?be strong.rmbr jgn lembek *****.anyway i just cant believe tt words frm a mouth to mouth or better still speak of the devil spread out way too fast.it really can make ppl judge u one sidedly and hate u tt very instance w/o u having a chance to explain wat really happen and ur side of the story.to those whom i hurt or offended last time im really sorry.maybe when i did sumthing wrong i did think bout it.if i had the chance i will say sorry straight up to ur face n better still make it up to u just to clear the polluted air around us.n lastly selamat berbuka wahai rakan islamku.

2009-08-19T01:59:00.003+08:00

ystrdy was one of my best days in soccer.i was on top form.n its been a while tt i step in onto bishan ite field n wore my sells glove.all thnks to aly.he rescue me from my boredom.idk y when im all alone at home i felt so liveless n ntg seems cure the boredom unless i go out.i quicky packed my stuff n rush to meet him.get to noe he can dilly dally-.-.trained to bs with aceh n aly.when i reached there i noe bs boys will gv me tt black-sourish face bt its nt like wat i think.they greeted me n say eh lame mengilang.lmao!!yeah its been a while since i step foot in bs and i played one hell of a game.i made tt particular save tt make everyone go wahhhh!baek ruq!i was like OMG!how cud i manage to save a top corned shot shooted by fai?i was at my full stretch.if there were cameraman or so it will definately be picture perfect.wat a waste.everyday is nt sunday!n aft the game we slagg at KPT when all the TKK(talk kok kia) started talking.this part i cant take it.all of them are still hilarious as ever.n there is a part where afeeq n husnie had a convo bout wats gonna happen to ur child.i will get the vid soon.maybe i hvnt been spending time with them when i hv a gf.SO NW ALL IM GONNA DO IS ENJOY WITH THEM.sometimes how loyal ure with ur gf they will still leave u unlike frens that will stay loyal to u.so be wise when it comes to frens n r/s.nites readers!

2009-08-18T00:38:00.006+08:00

haiya fasting month is coming so quick n its like just a few more days.GOSH!n i still hv nt yet repay last year's utang.hai most of them are purposely.only god knows wat i did.luckily this yr there is no temptations.to those tt are in r/s u guys better be careful.trust me i been there done tt.dear god give me the strength to fast fully for this yr.i hv nt been fasting fully for years.i already change my ways.no more mr bad guy.for all those bad stuff i done last yr i really regret it.n nw i must think of a way to pay up last yr fast.hai.now im setting up my schedule for those ppl who want to make plans for buka puasa.haha.if got plans do gimme a call aite.a date for buka puasa is even better.hehe!btw i dissappointed tt this weekend plans didnt go out as i planned.first stupid bernard frm epicurious told me tt i cant work at there no more cs of my age.gosh!then all my frens bubbled n on sun sumone cancel.nvm.maybe i sud learn nt to trust ppl that easy n nt be too gullible.bt nvm i still manage to lpak with my beloved secretary ystrdy.thnks for ur time pek!movie dnt lupe uh!i think i gotta give soccer a long rest aft wat happen to my knee.its nt doin well n giving me ntg but trouble n pain.i dnt hv enough $$ to go for a scan n even buy a new contact lense tt i hv been wearing for 4 months.gonna be blind soon.hai.n y ppl keep saying tt imma mat rep these day even nt b4 knowing me?am i tt bad?go look around and see how does mat rep look likes.nv judge a book by its cover ok?i gotta sleep.tmr gonna tc of lil asshole n money is gonna be on the way eventhough lil.nites readers

2009-08-16T00:11:00.002+08:00

hey if u are reading this happy anniversary ok love?eventhough we are still nt together i will still wish u n buy u gifts for our ann.its ok if u want to dump it away.i dont mind.i dont even have a say in ur life.like i say who i am in yr eyes nw?just a piece of shit rite?its ok.hey dnt look down on me.i too wanna move on but i just really2 cherish our good n bad moments.w/o bad moments we wont be tt strong,we wont go this far n unstd each otr.n w/o good moments u wont noe how much the otr party loves u.but u chose to let it go aft holding on bear with the pain.w/o u doin this how cud i realise how much u meant for me?u talk to otrs as if tt all this while im the one who is always in the wrong.in a r/s no one is wrong.its the both of the party in it.IF i were to listen n appreciate u we will still be together n IF we both are more mature this wont happen.nvm la.just go enjoy n idk y as i wrote this tears are rolling down.n yea as u assume im the devil rite n its always been me.i didnt make u happy at all nt even for once.nvm if i were to bragg none will read.sorry for everything.hope our miracle can forgave me.n lastly who am i if it wasnt for u?i really need sumone to be dere for me especially like this situation.hai.pek oh pek.where are u.hai.

2009-08-14T18:55:00.002+08:00

EH FCUK ROUND OF APPAULAUSE FOR U GUYS LA CB!THNK ALOT OK?!CCB!

once again im so gullible.i feel like knocking their fcuking head.

2009-08-14T02:54:00.003+08:00

pek!haiyah u uh so lazy nowdays.how to be my secretary?asek tdo je-.- .hmm eh dnt forget our movie uh.heh.if u dnt wanna watch tt movie then we can watch otr movie okay?i ta psl.for ur sake uh if can watch fri midnite show.eventhough bsk i keje.if cannot psl timing or ade money issue next wk then k?tamo na simpan2 dlm ati.-.- .btw kn thnks for all this while ok?for being there for me n ur precious time.btw eh asl rumours terbang peh lincar?y ppl are shock when i go out with u?sala ke?or are u too hot for me?maklum la i kn sape.hehe!btw aceh.chill la.haiyoh!!hai weekends are so pack n im working n i hv to spend time with frens.hai.confirm shagged rbk nye.adita tian pls eh sun jgn bubble.hehe.mummy i love u alot.eversince i ran home u hv been treating me so well.thnks for all the shopping spree.i really appreciate it n grateful.dnt worry ok?next year ruq sch ok?n lastly nadt ure sucha ass.nw im totally addicted to the damn song.hai.

2009-08-12T18:25:00.003+08:00

someone wise taught me this.loving sumone doesnt meant u must cling on them till death.u must also learn to let go.n if the person is meant for u he/she will come back to u one day.so im letting u fly far far away and put u aside of my heart.n if u were to came knocking on my door again i will be willing to accept u no matter wat happen to u n the previous ex of urs.the love just cant die.maybe ure too hurt.nvm one day u will noe the meaning of this.btw thnks for everything ok?n teaching me how to love n let go of someone.n if u dont mind the way of us talking will be the same just tt we be bestfriend like last time.cs i noe u inside out n deep down.i will be willing to be ur pillion of strength.n yea on tt day when i met u thnks for the time,last hug n allowing me to kiss ur forehead for the last time.nw u belong to him.make sure u tc good care of urself n listen to yr parents.i really meant wat i said that day.every piece of it.cs i was so stupid n brainless b4.bt i really regretted n i really want u back tt day.i didnt think of ur feelings n i didnt noe tt im already too late.im sorry adita tian.forgive me.i already forgive u frm head to toe.i didnt use her ok.she is the pillion of my strength.she,nadt n mi.all of them help me when im dying outside.im just moved by wat she had done for me.tts all.maybe its u tt still think tt i hvnt change n i nv will cs u didnt notice it when ure busy n when im all alone.i can already control my mouth n temper and i learnt to appreciate ppl.n i didnt smoke nor drink anymore.my determination drive is very strong nw.im nt a quitter no more.im tired to be one.maybe its too soon for me to talk.u will just see the diff soon.the next time u see me or talk to me its nt with the faruq u known b4.maybe u abuse the word 'mat rep'.trust me im nt one.maybe by u judging the way i wear.bt the way i talk n the way i move is totally nt.let throw the past away n start afresh as bestfriends.n yeah pls i wanna go indonesia.pls.make this a birthday wish for me.AND our ann is coming near.i would really love n appreciate if u can spend time with me.eventhough a short while just tt as friends.thnks.btw beloved secretary thnks for all tt u hv done for me.i appreaciate it alot.n yea pek dont forget uh to watch movie.gi joe bt only the both of us.my kwn watch already.busted!hahah.its on u k?.kidd!haha. meet up soon pek!

2009-08-11T01:06:00.002+08:00

hai.idk wat sud i really do now.i feel like a pepek.my current emotions totally sucks.i cant believe she's feeling like a stone.no soft spot for me at all.ur heart totally empty for me.u hv a bf so?hai.can anyone help me?idk wat to do.yes i really love u alot.i realise wat i done.there's a saying tt says one will only learn if a mistake is created.ntg is too late.wat does just nw means?is it crocodile tears again?pls ok.i need u sia pepek!y must u stabbed me in the heart.senang ati just take the chopper n chop me.y must u lie to me?pepek for u i rather wait for 3 months.like u say na bubah.skrg ape pek?hai.sorry bt all just nw are 100%
genuine/legit.i say frm the bottom of my heart.sorry i ta world or peng.sorry i just want u back.i cant find my way w/o u.one last dance pls.can we start all over again?bagaimana cara nya untk meruntuh kn keras hati mu pepek?

2009-08-10T22:21:00.001+08:00

the horibble truth that i just find out is totally unbareable.i just cant take it.till when?ohh god pls help me control this freaking temper.i need ur guidance allah

2009-08-08T14:41:00.006+08:00

It's easy to hate

It's harder to love me

You all don't understand

You all too quickly to judge me

Put your foot in my shoes

Picture you living my life

Picture you wasting your life

Picture you wasting your time for a girl

Picture you beating the odds

Picture you willing to bleed

Picture you ready to suffer

Thank you for making me struggle

Thank you for making me learn

I perfected my life w/o u

You've not been seein' me lately

I'm a miracle baby

I refuse to lose

This what you made me

Tryna hope for a better tommorow

When I think that I can't

I think bout how fuck you are

If the world was perfect

All my friends are behind me

Ain't you happy that you have someone new

Take a look and you can tell how grateful im w/o you

To ShawtyKitty if ure reading my blog im sorry aites if i was childish that day.i didnt meant it all.im sorry if i vent out my anger at u.i cant control my temper.i hv yet to learn bout the wonders on earth.to all of you guys that hv been there for me.thnks alot.n mummy i love u n thnks so much for buying me a new hp.i promise i you i will tc good care of it.i will listen to u.n i will control my temper n mouth.even how stressful the situation is.AND I CANT WAIT FOR TMR!HAHA.Happy 44th Birthday Singapore!

2009-08-07T02:52:00.001+08:00

YOU ARE SO GONNA DIE BOY!!!

ble setan da msk.tade sape lei kuar kn bt die.so korg pandai2

2009-08-06T00:26:00.005+08:00

haaaaaaaa.is it like a game to those ppl that keep lying to me?haaaaaa.if u guys wanna world pls make sure ur family members can cover ur back.hahaa.so stupid.sucha fickle minded person.enough of tt.since that day i think i like have a crush on someone.use to be not that big bt the feeling is like kinda growing.heh.na tau sape?pandai2 teka ok or u guys go ask fahmi.heh.maybe its time for me to move on?nah.i will just go with the flow.maybe it's just my feeling n wishful thinking?but there's alot of possibilities.who cares.just a crush.btw dad stop being an asshole pls.i need a new hp.my K750i is already spoil n its been 2yr+.sucha pain !!lastly im looking for a date on sun.anyone?hehe

"If you love someone, let them go. For if they come back, they are meant for you. But if they don't, they never will."

2009-08-05T14:07:00.002+08:00

thnks to both of them im this strong although i kept on struggling everysingle day.i had to do the same thing every single day just to be strong,forget u and controlling my temper.when i ran home did u bother?if it werent for fahmi,nadt,meen n hiddy i would end up dying on the streets.where were u?did u even bother?haaaaaa.im stronger nw.if u watch the movie chandi chowk to china.tts how im.im like sidhu.determine for sumthink.destiny is nt in our palm its our hard work.like u say im bodo that i didnt get a work.im lazy.trust me one day my hard work will pay off.just see ok.i quit all my bad habits.im way much fitter these days.just do wat u think best.tc of urself.im learning to control the fire within.

2009-08-05T01:21:00.004+08:00

what's the meaning of all this?stop being so self-centered.i too have feelings.what's your motive of doing all of this?what do u really want me to do?how could u possibly change your mind in a snap?first u say u cant manage your time with me,studies and your friend that came here frm indonesia to visit s'pore and u.ok i totally understand that they are not here everyday but why did u behave 1 sidely when i comes to me.atleast if u dont hv the time for me atleast keep me update.aint that what u are suppose to do if u usually have a bf?u said that u need the both of us fucking much but why u treat me as in im a tissue for u?and u even heck care when i say i wanna settle this so that we can be happy.u even say meet on wednesday to clear things up.aint that too late when u say it at saturday?our r/s is not important?aft what we been through for 17th months?i know im an ass but i change for u.did u notice?u even got the cheek to wear bikini to sentosa?i know if im too much but u want other horny guys to look at u?sorry but when it comes to bikini its a straight no for me.when u finally decide to meet me on tuesday u did say earlier but u have last min class so its ok.when u meet me at my house tell me how's your face,what's your emotion?what did u felt?u said u cant manage all of this at once right?u even say u want time till end of your o's.for you i sacrifice i say yes just to see u pass with flying colours.like what u say u wanna challenge my score of A's right?so i dont mind.i just want the best for u.i say to u that i wont be msging u cs i will be disturbing me but what did u say to me in those tears?u beg me to msg n call u every single day so i decide to swallow my ego just to say yes to stop those tears.then when i left u msg me this the reason im doin this cause i cant bare to u in pain.everything that u have done u still cant change for the best just for me.give me time to change to be the best wife for u.this few wks i did hurt u n cant stop hurting u.heard that u hvnt been sleeping n all those.it breaks my heart.i will come back to u.and she say she loves me.i was too trustful and gullible towards her.i gave her a chance to change cs everybody deserve chances.bt aft all she said on tuesday she eat all of the words on wed.she told me that she wanna move on.she dont wanna feel all of this pain anymore and im giving her pressure if i msg or call her?what does this mean?i though u want it?than y sudden change of mind?is it bcs i met meen on wed and i msg u bout break thing and i msg her using i u in mly?fyi its was supposingly to be sent to her bt i send wrongly cs im having a job briefing.is it bcs of this?is it that u think that im still a flirt?sorry but i change just for u.since that day till monday i have been trying to reach u bt u push and avoid me.aint it better if u just meet me just for a while and we settle this so i wont bother u till u o's?i just want answer is it hard?what's the motive of avoiding me?u sure ure damn busy?sorry but even the busiest person on earth can make time for their love.u say u wanna move on right?haaaa!after u said that u dnt wanna have a bf and a r/s but im sorry im nt easily cheated on but u already have a new guy in your life.congrats.while im suffering out dere ure enjoying.when i ran home fpr 3 days bcs of my bro beat me up and im having a high fever did u care for me?u just let me die and let just kept me hanging.my heart is not a toy.if ure afraid to let me know that u hv a new guy cs u re afraid i'll bashed him up?sorry but i change.i tend to think positive now and i matured enough to think of what to do now.i can control my anger nw.im strong and nt weak as a pepek as u pressume.its u that aint matured enough.u just left me like that n have a new guy already?aft 17 of our love life.maybe u dont know how much i love u.how much i cry on u.how much i care bout u.u just wont bother.all of my friend ask me to move on but i decide to gv our r/s another chance.but do u even care?if u want to be with this guy so much then its ok la.but trust me ok.just dnt regret it.u know what will happen.what typical guys do.just tc of urself.i cant make u listen to me much like last time.trust me one day u will be knocking on my door once again.just dont let ur ego control u.and lastly im sorry bout mama.w/o her im nt that strong.she is like a real mum to me eventhough i have a mum bt she didnt care for me like mama did.thnks mama.i really love u i really hope i can be ur soon.but we let time tell ok.just answer all of this qn if u tend to read my blog.u know where to find me